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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

罹难

This post is specially written for those who are involved in the tragedy:

the victims,
we are proud at your courage and determination...
though you have lost this fight,
but your spirit will always be with us ;


their friends,
they will feel your faith for waiting and praying for them at the shore,
day and night,
for them to come back ;

their family,
they will feel your love forever,
since the day they were born
leaving you all in pain is the last thing they would want to do

lets grieve for them together...





(一)

呼啸的海风引来大海的不安分,掀起浪潮,时缓时激地冲击着
- 换来的是我载浮载沉的身躯,以及仅浮向水面的脸庞。
在这样的恶况下,鼻子已被海水塞住,失去了呼吸的功能;
只能不断张嘴巴,吸取海风中稀薄的氧气。
而手中紧紧抓住的船桨,俨然成为我漂浮着的重心,我唯一的希望。

我猜想:这样漫无目的地漂浮应该都有好几个小时了吧。

从烈日曝晒下呼声求救,到夕阳西下无力吭声。
疲惫的身躯已经无力游往遥远的岸边,四肢也因长时间浸在海水里而变得僵硬。
现下的情况宛如被捆绑着一样,无法动弹,只能不停地被浪潮蹂躏。

一切发生得太突然了

脑海里依然清晰记得这一天发生的事情:

昨晚时,我还和班上的同学一起玩GG,
own 到那lansi的陈靖伦feed 够够,

然后再侮辱他,让他没声出,爽到~~~;

早上时,我还骑着我旧旧的EX-5
一起与队友们到街角的Mamak档,

喝我们都爱喝的Teh Ice,
一起讲教练的坏话;


练习时,我还一起与队友们高声吟唱我们自创的打气歌,
还是改编最近红到要死的Bad Romance呢,
让教练与第一次出船的顾问老师看了都好笑。


但就在我们练习完准备回岸的那一霎那,意外发生了。

事发的经过太快了,我只知道龙舟突然间失去控制撞上铁船,
队友们纷纷坠海,而我在坠海后被一股强大的吸力卷走。
尽管我努力的挣扎,想游向海面,却力不从心。
只能像玩偶一般任浪潮摆布,持续性地被不同的暗流卷走,沉溺。
耳边还不时听见其他人的求救声,尖叫声,呼喊声,
到现在那凄厉的声音还在我耳边萦绕。。。



(二)

这时的浪已经平静了下来,海风也变得轻微抚脸。
然而我的四肢依然僵硬乏力,宛如植物人一般无法动弹。
遥远处已亮起灯火,但依旧是那么的遥远;
意昧着生机也像那远处的岸边,遥不可及了。

想要凭我现在的体力游回岸上,也只是是空想,只是奢望而已。
无力地望着寂静的天空,原本的乌云密布已被狂风吹走,
换来的是满天繁星,点缀着如墨色般的苍穹。
然而此时的我却无法被这美景慑服,因为这意昧着我已从上午漂浮至夜晚了。
我望着苍天,第一次诚心的祷告,努力的祈祷,希望上天垂怜。
我才17岁而已,我还不想那么早离开这世界啊!!!

我还没有一起与龙舟队员们
夺下今年全国冠军,为校争光;


我还没有驾过车,载着整车的朋友
闹哄哄地绕槟城food hunt;


我还没有告诉我认识了6年好朋友说:
“有你成为我的好兄弟,是我最大的荣幸”;


我还没有向补习班坐我前面的长发女生说:
“我想认识你”;


我还没有出席我中学生涯的毕业典礼,
成为最佳毕业生;


我还没有出外工作,赚取我第一份的薪水;


我还没有达成我成为工程师的梦想;

我还没有报答老师们循循善诱的教导之恩;


我还没有反哺父母亲含辛茹苦的养育之恩;


我还没有好好地对我父母说一声:“爸,妈,我爱你”;


我真的还有好多好多的“还没有”想完成,
而这些未完成的事激发起了我仅剩的斗志:
"我要亲手完成它们。"
尽管我离远处的岸边有相当的距离,但我还存有希望。。。

奇迹会发生的。



(三)

似乎过了好久,又好像过了几分钟而已,我的思绪已经开始无法集中了。
黑夜依然如此寂静,海浪声仿佛与刚才一样频率,没有疾徐之分。

奇迹?没有发生。

我崩溃了。

此刻的我好想念我的家人;现在的我只想回家。

这是17年来第一次与家人失去联络那么久,
爸,妈及妹妹应该非常担心我吧。
我好希望他们能够保重身体,不要太操劳;
尤其是妈妈,她身体一向来都很弱,
知道我失踪的消息她一定心急如焚,整天没半粒米下肚了。
多希望此时我能够在她身旁拥抱她,安慰她,跟她说一声:
“妈你放心,我没事,这不就好好的回来了吗?”
然后再一家人开开心心地一起去妈妈最爱去的“大树下”吃饭,
点爸爸最爱吃得Belacan炸鸡和妈妈最爱吃的马来风光;
而我答应这次我一定会把蔬菜都吃完。

还有我那7岁的妹妹,她很怕黑,
每次睡觉前都央求着我陪在她旁边,陪她讲话直到她睡着为止。
聊的都是她身边发生的小小事情,
好像学校学会了什么东西,
电视中的卡通故事情节,
或者她又被班上的小明欺负了,叫我一定要去教训小明。
而她这一些一些的纯真往往都是我解压的泉源。
妹,今后kor如果不在了,你要学会好好照顾自己还有爸妈,
如果小明又欺负你,我再也不能保护你了。。。

想到这,我的眼泪已经失去控制地流下来了。
想号啕大哭,却哭不出声音来
我的喉咙缺水而干了,只能发出一些“吱”“阿”声而已。

渐渐,我哭不出了,感觉得到全身陷入严重性缺水的情:
心跳无法有规律,思绪也越来越缓了。
家人,朋友,同学,老师,学校,
以及好多我人生中的过客,及分不清的片段
不停地在我眼前中闪过;
分不出是真实或幻觉。

我看着这一幕一幕,我满脑子只有重复又重复地说:

谢谢你们,对不起,再见 。。。
谢谢你们,对不起再见。。。
谢谢你们对不起再见。。。
谢你对起见。。。
谢对见。。。
。。。

我用尽仅存的力量,松开了手,缓缓地陷入无底的深渊,
沉溺在柔和海水里,感受着海底的宁静,
像个婴孩般熟睡去了。。。



(四)

4 失踪者尸体寻获 6 师生断魂

(槟城18日讯)
截至周一下午4时,钟灵龙舟撞翻惨案的4名失踪学生

吴奕樟
杨延开
谢子俊
黄雍翔


的遗体均已寻获,使到惨剧共夺走6条人命。



  • 失踪者吴奕樟遗体于周一清晨被寻获


  • 得悉爱儿发生意外至今,杨延开母亲一直抱着相信是属于延开的书包,在圣约翰救伤队将她送往医院接受治疗时,她仍不忘双掌合十地祈求爱儿归来。

For those who have passed away,
i send my deepest condolences to you guys...

Like a friend said:
"一日钟灵,一世钟灵。Chung Ling kias wont be beaten down so easily!
"



R.I.P

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Storm


How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If i'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I know everything will be alright
I know everything will be alright

* hit by a sudden storm in the early morning T.T *

Closed


CLOSED


*due to the finals*



**brb after 25/1, hopefully XD**




Sunday, January 3, 2010

2nd day of 2010

Woke up at 4om on 2nd day of 2010....
@_@
and got a msg from Shi Ting when i'm plurk-ing
she's inviting me to Zhao Wei house for dinner lol
rfrf.....
受宠若惊 nia when she invited me.... XP

reached her place at 8pm...
tried her Coke chicken which she prepared from scratch:-
buying chicken
cutting chicken
cooking chicken
and pour a liter of Coke to the chicken lol

tried the vegetables she prepared 90% as well
and also the curry chicken from her sis
and the pork which she prepared only 10% of it LOL
they are all NICE to be honest haha XD

then we played card games
DARE to do anything wild and crazy
from physical activities
to
extreme action LOL
it was really fun haha

then her father brought us this
to spice up the night
(2 bottle to be exact LOL)


*as i said in my previous post, whiskey is always an ignition of
excitement for me haha*


then,
Drink
Drank

Drunk


and this happened


*man down, but still on high security alert lol*

then we played
5 person Chor Dai Di taught by Zhao Wei
Exciting as well lol
where the person who self-proclaimed that he won consecutive
7 match in his class
is a slave in this game HAHA

BOO~!!!!

End up to be a driver
even though drank so much
and driving home soberly (rock)

listened
I'll be from Edwin Mccain
for the rest of the night......

A great thanks to Zhao Wei again for the night
and also Shi Ting for inviting haha
=)

Friday, January 1, 2010

Hello 2010 =)


Happy New Year~!!!

On the first day of new year
wanna start doing something new

BLOGGING XD

Had a little family BBQ at my house as new year eve celebration,
nothing fancy or exciting...

*photos will be uploaded when I get pictures from Xia Wei*

I'm responsible to set the fire
as they claimed that I'm the
experienced one @_@"
Took 1 hour to successfully set up the fire

BY MY OWN
HAHAHAHAH

the only photo I have about the BBQ is....



The night was quiet before Xia Wei came
and a little surprise visit from some friends =)
THANKS for coming despite the problems arose,
it really made my day haha... *rfrf*

Well the last liquor I drank in the very last day of 2009 is Xtra Old,
sponsored by Xia Wei XD
(nvr heard before lol, but Google tell me is Canadian Whiskey lai)


*whiskey seems like the only liquor that can ignite my excitement*

After the BBQ, we went Gurney Drive
to celebrate the last 30mins of 2009,
and also for the 8 minutes FIREWORKS!!!
Parked the car at UOB bank since got people claimed that
it's more secure t(@ .@t)

Many police were "working" along gurney drive,
even helicopter was seen,
cruising along the gurney drive beach
with their spotlight turned on,
like searching for dead body at the beach LOL


*Their uniform reflects when my camera flashes LOL*


TICK TOCK TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

TICK TOCK

10!
9 !!
8 !!!
7 !!!!
6 !!!!!
5 !!!!!!
4 !!!!!!!
3 !!!!!!!!
2 !!!!!!!!!
1 !!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!~~!~!~!!~!!~!~!~!~!~!!!!!!


Shouting like mad man when the fireworks started,
but I'm seems like the only one shouting..
Beh High eh =.="
and we messed up the location of the fireworks
it was at esplanade instead of Gurney Plaza!!!!
However, we still managed to catch it
from esplanade at Gurney drive
Lucky lucky

After that we bought some beers, continue drinking
and went back my place to play card games;
wrapping up for the little celebration...


Wish you guys HAPPY NEW YEAR again
&
Goodbye 2009!!!!




** This year's celebration is rather a heart-warming one
instead of the usual crazy and exciting one;
also the first time since 2004 to celebrate with family =]
Just like someone reminded me:
HOME is still the warmest place (cozy)

AND I'm saying a million times of thank you to
you guys
for accompany me for the night;

btw,
sorry for didn't pick up your call... >.<
As for those who are not around and from far,
I can feel your sincere wishes ^_^
Truthfully wish you all happy new year **